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I made a decision that what I write in this diary will be as revealing as a possible. I kind of keep the things that happen to me to me if that makes sense. For example I still haven’t told half my family about this book. The reasoning behind it is that there is no point telling people until I actually know its going somewhere. If I tell people about this too soon and I fall flat on my face then I leave myself open for ridicule or even worse sympathy. See it’s that whole thing, if you fall over and no ones around to see it you pick yourself up wait till it stops hurting and carry on. If you fall over in front of a crowd its 10 times as worse. This is how I have managed to get in and out of 4 relationships without my mum knowing. It’s much harder to tell her anything I know how she worries about me. of course she worries more when she sees me walking around broken hearted without a reason, its hard to tell people your upset because you have been dumped when you haven’t even told them you were going out with anyone
The reason for me doing this diary is that I’m fed of walking around half dead when things go bad or ecstatic when things go well. I think this may be the only place I can be truly open and honest and I think I need that. So be warned what you read here will be truth, I wont be holding back |
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